Our inner seasons of spring and summer are a period of ‘healthy egoic development’.
We are expanding, rooting ourselves out in the material world, stepping into our power and claiming our energetic space. The ‘positive’ aspects of our psyche shine, connecting to the outside world, sharing our gifts, being seen…here I am world, I am amaaaaazing.
I am in my inner summer and I had a little chuckle to myself yesterday as I observed my ego saying “you’re great, you’re amazing, you’re really good at this, you’re the best”. On one hand, it is very lovely that my inner chatter was so positive. I recognised though that if I had fed that voice then it would have become an inflated sense of self.
One of the best and possibly one of the most kick my ass hardcore lessons I have learnt this past year is with expansion can come a period of contraction. The more I can feel the blissful, joyful connection of life, the more I experience the depths of my own pain. The more I step into my power, the more of my vulnerability will emerge.
The menstrual cycle models this beautifully. Once we have built ourselves up through spring and summer, the laws of nature then nudge us into Autumn. All that has been built in the first half of the cycle then gets stripped bare. It’s like consciousness knows it is not healthy to stay in the fullness of our egoic state so it draws our energy inwards, forcing us to slow down, to see what isn’t working, stripping our ego, letting things go and moving towards emptiness. The reward is that in the emptiness of your inner winter, you can experience bliss, melt into existence, be in connection with love, with the divine.
For me, being an empowered person is about being able to experimentally know the fullness of my power, my wholeness, my epic awesomeness and to hold it in balance with the depths of my vulnerability, my shadow, my pain, my terror. The menstrual cycle allows you to experience both sides, the light and the shadow. Through awareness you can integrate the experience of power and vulnerability, bringing a beautiful humbleness to your human experience.
Ehana Spiers x